and She Said (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} bloodied_quill) wrote,@ 2006-01-30 21:26:00 |
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Title: America
Category: fan fiction, one-shot
Genre: angst/reflective
Rating: PG
Date: January 24-26 2006
Written for![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif)
50stories
Theme: #35 - Ocean
Pairing: tetsu/hyde of L’Arc~en~Ciel (with a dash of sakura/hyde because I’m a jerk like that)
Disclaimer: I do not own/am not affiliated with L’Arc~en~Ciel, Sony Ki/oon, Danger Crue, etc. This is a work of complete fiction. It’s for fun; I’m not going to make any money off of this. However, this particular story is my own writing, so please do not claim it as yours or repost it without permission.
Comments: Plot outline by request oftogiretamelody.
Word Count: 447 POV: first person (tetsu)
How dare I feel abandoned? How dare I feel victimized? How dare I feel like I had been wronged, hurt, jilted, when really, I had the least problems of all of us?
Because you couldn’t just “leave” like a normal person, could you. You were never normal, not from the day we met and I had to do a double take regarding your gender to the day you said goodbye for the last time and I had to do a double take when I saw who you had at your side.
Believe me, I knew as well as, or rather, better than everyone that your marriage was failing long before it burned. Considering I was always the one you came crying to when you couldn’t stand to be in the house any more. And I was the one you came trying to seduce when you couldn’t win her over in the bedroom. And I was the one who gave in.
If you’d come to me telling me and said you were through--with me, with the band, with your wife, with music--well, I could probably have wrapped my head around it.
But when it was all of the above plus the nation of Japan; well. That went over like a blow to the head.
And when I realized sakura was waiting for you in the hallway, it went over like a second blow to the head, and I’m willing to bet it was said ex-L’Arc~en~Ciel drummer who ensured that I’d awaken from the sudden lack of consciousness lying comfortably on my couch. Since you really didn’t have it in you to carry me.
For one fleeting moment, you looked honestly worried. That was probably the last properly human emotion you showed to me. And it was gone almost as soon as I was aware enough to notice.
From there it just went cold. It was as though you took your “I am God” persona frm the stage and brought it into my living room. Let me tell you, Takarai, it wasn’t appreciated.
But maybe that was your point.
You only stayed long enough to see me cry.
But maybe that was your point, too.
America? You didn’t even speak passable English, hyde, never mind sakura’s inability to even ask directions to a train station or toilet.
America. I guess you weren’t as smart as I’d given you credit for.
After sixteen years, you walked out of my life with the same arrogance you’d had when you walked in.
Sixteen years older, sixteen years more beautiful, sixteen years thrown straight into the ocean you put between us when you got on that plane and never looked back.
The Request:
tian niao kit (6:38:27 PM): *goes through the list* hm, i wanna say ocean. and somehow twist that into like, loss and separation.
tian niao kit (6:38:37 PM): which either made no sense or it's gonna come and bite me in the ass >.>
oneXgreyXsunrise (6:38:49 PM): bite you in the ass. But elaborate, please?
tian niao kit (6:40:34 PM): i love how comforting that was x.x; um. you know how they're both close? have something happen that separates them (the cliche line of being oceans apart) and i guess, just tetsu reflecting on that. because i've gotten used to the tetsu POV. o.o;;
tian niao kit (6:41:35 PM): i'm so masochistic >.>;;
oneXgreyXsunrise (6:41:38 PM): I suppose one of them will have to...move? Like. hyde. To America.
tian niao kit (6:41:46 PM): yeah
Comment if you read
Requests are open here.
Category: fan fiction, one-shot
Genre: angst/reflective
Rating: PG
Date: January 24-26 2006
Written for
50storiesTheme: #35 - Ocean
Pairing: tetsu/hyde of L’Arc~en~Ciel (with a dash of sakura/hyde because I’m a jerk like that)
Disclaimer: I do not own/am not affiliated with L’Arc~en~Ciel, Sony Ki/oon, Danger Crue, etc. This is a work of complete fiction. It’s for fun; I’m not going to make any money off of this. However, this particular story is my own writing, so please do not claim it as yours or repost it without permission.
Comments: Plot outline by request of
togiretamelody.Word Count: 447 POV: first person (tetsu)
How dare I feel abandoned? How dare I feel victimized? How dare I feel like I had been wronged, hurt, jilted, when really, I had the least problems of all of us?
Because you couldn’t just “leave” like a normal person, could you. You were never normal, not from the day we met and I had to do a double take regarding your gender to the day you said goodbye for the last time and I had to do a double take when I saw who you had at your side.
Believe me, I knew as well as, or rather, better than everyone that your marriage was failing long before it burned. Considering I was always the one you came crying to when you couldn’t stand to be in the house any more. And I was the one you came trying to seduce when you couldn’t win her over in the bedroom. And I was the one who gave in.
If you’d come to me telling me and said you were through--with me, with the band, with your wife, with music--well, I could probably have wrapped my head around it.
But when it was all of the above plus the nation of Japan; well. That went over like a blow to the head.
And when I realized sakura was waiting for you in the hallway, it went over like a second blow to the head, and I’m willing to bet it was said ex-L’Arc~en~Ciel drummer who ensured that I’d awaken from the sudden lack of consciousness lying comfortably on my couch. Since you really didn’t have it in you to carry me.
For one fleeting moment, you looked honestly worried. That was probably the last properly human emotion you showed to me. And it was gone almost as soon as I was aware enough to notice.
From there it just went cold. It was as though you took your “I am God” persona frm the stage and brought it into my living room. Let me tell you, Takarai, it wasn’t appreciated.
But maybe that was your point.
You only stayed long enough to see me cry.
But maybe that was your point, too.
America? You didn’t even speak passable English, hyde, never mind sakura’s inability to even ask directions to a train station or toilet.
America. I guess you weren’t as smart as I’d given you credit for.
After sixteen years, you walked out of my life with the same arrogance you’d had when you walked in.
Sixteen years older, sixteen years more beautiful, sixteen years thrown straight into the ocean you put between us when you got on that plane and never looked back.
The Request:
tian niao kit (6:38:27 PM): *goes through the list* hm, i wanna say ocean. and somehow twist that into like, loss and separation.
tian niao kit (6:38:37 PM): which either made no sense or it's gonna come and bite me in the ass >.>
oneXgreyXsunrise (6:38:49 PM): bite you in the ass. But elaborate, please?
tian niao kit (6:40:34 PM): i love how comforting that was x.x; um. you know how they're both close? have something happen that separates them (the cliche line of being oceans apart) and i guess, just tetsu reflecting on that. because i've gotten used to the tetsu POV. o.o;;
tian niao kit (6:41:35 PM): i'm so masochistic >.>;;
oneXgreyXsunrise (6:41:38 PM): I suppose one of them will have to...move? Like. hyde. To America.
tian niao kit (6:41:46 PM): yeah
Comment if you read
Requests are open here.
