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Title: Delilah
Category: fan fiction, one-shot
Genre: songfic; reflective
Rating: PG
Date: July 31, 2006
Written for![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif)
50stories
Theme: #42 - Song
Pairing: hyde and tetsu (sub - hyde and Megumi)
Disclaimer: I do not own/am not affiliated with L’Arc~en~Ciel, Sony Ki/oon, Danger Crue, etc. This is a work of complete fiction. It’s for fun; I’m not going to make any money off of this. However, this particular story is my own writing, so please do not claim it as yours or repost it without permission.
Comments: This is a songfic. It's not the most Megumi-friendly fic in the world, though it doesn't attack her.
POV: First person (tetsu)
Songfic
Song title: Hallelujah
Artist: Rufus Wainwright
I heard there was a secret chord
That David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It was something that always surprised me about you. You listened to music, sure, but hardly ever. As years went by, you listened to it less and less. Even though you threw yourself heart and soul into your own. But it wasn’t that you only liked your own, at least I never believed that—you weren’t quite that arrogant. You just didn’t seem to find the time. Or maybe it was distracting.
It goes like this, the fourth, the fifth, the minor fall, the major lift, the baffled king composing Hallelujah
I always wondered why, but you never gave me an answer. You never gave many answers at all. You held the air of a mysterious artist, even with me. But I never held it against you. I don’t think you ever had all the answers to give in the first place.
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
No matter how hard it might have been to understand you, it was never hard to find you magnetic. You called your fans “hydeists” as though you were a deity, and you played to that image every step of the way. And they were happy to follow. But it wasn’t just your fans. You had a draw. And I still don’t know what it was. But you had one. And you pulled me in, too, and I was willing. I was enthralled. I came to feel it was exactly what I wanted. And I was so happy.
Your faith was strong but you needed proof, you saw her bathing on the roof, her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you
You said you didn’t believe in love. Even when we’d been so close for so many years, you still said you didn’t believe in love. But you did. You just hadn’t found it. And it was so obvious when you did—you found a fascination in someone you’d never met in a way you couldn’t find fascination in me. You didn’t even try to hide it. And I didn’t try to stop you. I never stood a chance.
She tied you to a kitchen chair, she broke your throne, she cut your hair, and from your lips she drew the Hallelujah
You changed so fast I don’t think even you could quite believe it. Before you knew it, you and your music weren’t the center of your own world—she was, your son was. Even if she couldn’t take away your vices, she changed you. And you loved her for that as much as anything else.
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
And you were happier than anyone had ever seen you. You were happier than you thought you could be. And you might have been surprised, but that changed nothing.
Maybe I have been here before, I know this room; I have walked this floor, I used to live alone before I knew you
I've seen your flag on the marble arch, love is not a victory march, it's a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah
Isn’t it such a common cliché to say that history repeats itself? You lived up to it, didn’t you? We retraced steps we knew too well, remembered too well. I never understood why love wasn’t enough for you. But I didn’t question. You came to me, never the other way. And somehow we made each other happy. But I realize when I look back that we were just addicts chasing a high that would never be the same again.
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
But it was what we settled for, because we couldn’t find anything better.
There was a time you let me know what’s really going on below, but now you never show it to me, do you?
Remember when I moved in you; the holy dark was moving too, and every breath we drew was Hallelujah
Even though you always liked to keep people guessing, there was a time when you told me so much I could almost complete the puzzle. But that fell away even before you found what you thought you were looking for. And even when pieces of the past resurfaced, that was never one of them. Even as we put it back together, we fell further apart. And somehow we didn’t notice. We thought we were doing what was best, or at least better. With every word passed between us, we affirmed our conviction that what was wrong wasn’t really wrong.
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Perhaps we thought we’d raised Atlantis.
Maybe there's a God above, and all I ever learned from love was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
And its not a cry you can hear at night, its not somebody who's seen the light, its a cold and its a broken Hallelujah
Perhaps we knew that wasn’t true. We didn’t deserve it, anyway. We weren’t supposed to be happy. When I’d lost my place in your affections, I regained it, but I didn’t fit there anymore. It was an empty victory in a battle I’d hardly raised a finger to fight, and still the damage was etched in every moment.
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Even still you want it this way. On the good days, you smile and pull me close, and you tell me that things will never change. As though they never changed in the first place. On the bad days, you just want it all to stop, to rewind and change it all. On the days in between, I find the happiness I saw written in your smile and reflected in my own looking older and more tired every day, fading even faster than we are.
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
please comment if you read.
Requests are open
Category: fan fiction, one-shot
Genre: songfic; reflective
Rating: PG
Date: July 31, 2006
Written for
50storiesTheme: #42 - Song
Pairing: hyde and tetsu (sub - hyde and Megumi)
Disclaimer: I do not own/am not affiliated with L’Arc~en~Ciel, Sony Ki/oon, Danger Crue, etc. This is a work of complete fiction. It’s for fun; I’m not going to make any money off of this. However, this particular story is my own writing, so please do not claim it as yours or repost it without permission.
Comments: This is a songfic. It's not the most Megumi-friendly fic in the world, though it doesn't attack her.
POV: First person (tetsu)
Songfic
Song title: Hallelujah
Artist: Rufus Wainwright
I heard there was a secret chord
That David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It was something that always surprised me about you. You listened to music, sure, but hardly ever. As years went by, you listened to it less and less. Even though you threw yourself heart and soul into your own. But it wasn’t that you only liked your own, at least I never believed that—you weren’t quite that arrogant. You just didn’t seem to find the time. Or maybe it was distracting.
It goes like this, the fourth, the fifth, the minor fall, the major lift, the baffled king composing Hallelujah
I always wondered why, but you never gave me an answer. You never gave many answers at all. You held the air of a mysterious artist, even with me. But I never held it against you. I don’t think you ever had all the answers to give in the first place.
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
No matter how hard it might have been to understand you, it was never hard to find you magnetic. You called your fans “hydeists” as though you were a deity, and you played to that image every step of the way. And they were happy to follow. But it wasn’t just your fans. You had a draw. And I still don’t know what it was. But you had one. And you pulled me in, too, and I was willing. I was enthralled. I came to feel it was exactly what I wanted. And I was so happy.
Your faith was strong but you needed proof, you saw her bathing on the roof, her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you
You said you didn’t believe in love. Even when we’d been so close for so many years, you still said you didn’t believe in love. But you did. You just hadn’t found it. And it was so obvious when you did—you found a fascination in someone you’d never met in a way you couldn’t find fascination in me. You didn’t even try to hide it. And I didn’t try to stop you. I never stood a chance.
She tied you to a kitchen chair, she broke your throne, she cut your hair, and from your lips she drew the Hallelujah
You changed so fast I don’t think even you could quite believe it. Before you knew it, you and your music weren’t the center of your own world—she was, your son was. Even if she couldn’t take away your vices, she changed you. And you loved her for that as much as anything else.
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
And you were happier than anyone had ever seen you. You were happier than you thought you could be. And you might have been surprised, but that changed nothing.
Maybe I have been here before, I know this room; I have walked this floor, I used to live alone before I knew you
I've seen your flag on the marble arch, love is not a victory march, it's a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah
Isn’t it such a common cliché to say that history repeats itself? You lived up to it, didn’t you? We retraced steps we knew too well, remembered too well. I never understood why love wasn’t enough for you. But I didn’t question. You came to me, never the other way. And somehow we made each other happy. But I realize when I look back that we were just addicts chasing a high that would never be the same again.
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
But it was what we settled for, because we couldn’t find anything better.
There was a time you let me know what’s really going on below, but now you never show it to me, do you?
Remember when I moved in you; the holy dark was moving too, and every breath we drew was Hallelujah
Even though you always liked to keep people guessing, there was a time when you told me so much I could almost complete the puzzle. But that fell away even before you found what you thought you were looking for. And even when pieces of the past resurfaced, that was never one of them. Even as we put it back together, we fell further apart. And somehow we didn’t notice. We thought we were doing what was best, or at least better. With every word passed between us, we affirmed our conviction that what was wrong wasn’t really wrong.
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Perhaps we thought we’d raised Atlantis.
Maybe there's a God above, and all I ever learned from love was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
And its not a cry you can hear at night, its not somebody who's seen the light, its a cold and its a broken Hallelujah
Perhaps we knew that wasn’t true. We didn’t deserve it, anyway. We weren’t supposed to be happy. When I’d lost my place in your affections, I regained it, but I didn’t fit there anymore. It was an empty victory in a battle I’d hardly raised a finger to fight, and still the damage was etched in every moment.
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Even still you want it this way. On the good days, you smile and pull me close, and you tell me that things will never change. As though they never changed in the first place. On the bad days, you just want it all to stop, to rewind and change it all. On the days in between, I find the happiness I saw written in your smile and reflected in my own looking older and more tired every day, fading even faster than we are.
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
please comment if you read.
Requests are open
